| weezer put me back together |

I'm stressing. Next semester will be so hard. I'm really excited to finally go to Montclair and everything, but I can't live there. So I'll driving back and forth all the time and taking History classes.  I love History but I really should be taking Education classes. I just know that Education classes are going to stress me out, so I might just take History classes for a semester until I get settled into MSU. I don't know, it's so much to think about. Also, I don't know how we're going to pay for my tuition. I will probably have to pay for half but I don't think I have that money. Fortunately, I asked my manager for a very large raise and he said he is going to see what he can do. If he gives me what I asked for, I am going to celebrate.

Also super stressed with papers and stuff. I organized my schedule for the rest of the semester so that my work doesn't pile up and I get all my assignments done ahead of time. My Education class is stressing me out the most. It's such a waste for me, I hate this class and I do not need it to graduate so I can totally drop it. But if I dropped it, I won't be a full time student. So I'm stuck doing this bullshit work.

Probably worst of all, I feel very alone. I don't get to see my friends a lot because of my work schedule. Gianna and I barely get together because we're both always constantly busy and have different schedules. Frank and I are in a weird place so we barely talk anymore. My work friends go out all the time and because I'm still fucking twenty years old, I'm stuck home. I hope my plans for Sunday work out because I really, really need it to. I need that weird comfort. I just hating that I feel like I need to chase after it. I'm trying my best to not complain about all my shit. Sigh. I wish it were Christmas already.

| jay z feat. alicia keys empire state of mind |

Halloween weekend has been great! Friday was amazing. I LOVE those girls ridiculously. Everything was perfect<3 Except for the morning/ entire next day. But I guess I was overdue for a call out.

Saturday night was cool. I should have won an award for Sally Albright/ Meg Ryan look alike. Seriously.

So it's November 1st which kind of sucks. I have to start my Christmas shopping. Start doing MSU stuff. Real life has to being again. Sigh. Today I will be studying for my Middle Eastern history exam for like all day. But I want to see my boy tonight which means I'll have to drive down there. Sooo I need to get started with this studying.

JJ<33!